Miss Peyton

Davin and I went for another sonogram yesterday at a sonogram clinic that does the 2d (the regular sonogram) and the 3d and 4d. We were only supposed to get the 2d because we just wanted to make sure the baby is positioned okay since I have been having lots of pain in the upper right area of my stomach, but while he was talking to us the technician switched the sonogram to the 3d and 4d (thinking we had asked for that). Davin, being the "science guy" he is thought it was really cool and I just sat there in silence for the longest time trying to figure out why this guy was showing us this and then I was shocked when I actually started looking at our baby girl because she looks EXACTLY like her brother!!! EXACTLY! You could even see that she has the same cleft chin that Hayden got from me! So I guess all of us except for Davin will have that chin...which is weird because that's a recessive gene, but hey, that's the good ol' "Chapman Cleft!" She has the same nose as her brother, the same fat lil cheeks and then at one point when her Daddy was talking about deep sea fishing, she SMILED and has the SAME smile as Hayden! It was the FREAKIEST thing I have EVER seen! We didn't want a 3d or 4d sonogram with Hayden or with Peyton because we wanted to be surprised when we saw our baby for the first time, but by accident we got to see her! It really freaked me out, it was very cool, but strange for sure! I am going to see if I can scan the pictures on our computer at home because when I tried to scan them here at work, they came out really dark. Also, they made a DVD for us of the whole thing so if the pics won't work I'll try to download the video tonight! I'm also going to take pics of her room and post them tonight for you all! We are truly blessed to have TWO such beautiful, healthy, precious children. They are our little miracles and gifts from God! How could anyone ask for anything more?!?!? All I need this year at Christmas is to watch my son's face light up when he sees Santa, opens his presents, and sing and dance along to his Christmas songs! I can't believe this time next year our little family will be complete! I hope you all have a great day!
Love,
Spencer

Mamama

It is very hard for me to believe that today marks the second anniversary of my grandmother, Mamama's death. She was more than my grandmother; she was a second mother to me. I lived with her for as long as I lived with my parents: 21 years. Losing a grandparent is always difficult, but for my brother and me it was like we lost a parent the day she died. I don't think I have dealt with this loss yet, since I sometimes still feel like she's not gone, but rather visiting my Uncle Jimmy in Corsicana, especially when I go to Nacogdoches and walk into her empty room. It's hard for me to hold onto that fallacy now though since we lost my uncle Jimmy in February of this year to pancreatic cancer, so I know she can't be visiting him....well not here on earth anyway. It does warm my heart to know that she is with the love of her life, my grandfather Da, her parents, all her brothers and sisters, and her two beloved sons, but I still miss her so very much. The holidays are always hard for people who have lost loved ones because that's the time we are all supposed to be together. When Mamama died I was eight weeks away from giving birth to Hayden, whom she was so anxiously waiting to meet. This year I am pregnant again, but with a daughter and I'm sad for her because I never got to share any of this pregnancy with Mamama and that makes me feel like this baby got cheated out of knowing Mamama even more than Hayden did. It sounds silly, I know but it's how I feel. I know she is and has been in a better place for two years now, but the selfish part of me wishes she was still here. Yesterday I took out all of our Christmas decorations and put up the stockings that Mamama made for Davin, Hayden, and me and again it made me sad that our little Peyton would never have a hand-made stocking by her great-grandmother. I have decided to buy the same kind of little stocking sewing kit that Mamama would have if she were still here and attempt to sew one for Peyton myself. I'm hoping Mamama will help me out with this since I'm not the best with a needle and thread. Ha! She would also make her famous "trash" (her yummy chex mix goodies)every year for Christmas and give some to everyone she knew. I have made her trash and carried on this tradition for the past two Christmases and will continue to do it every Christmas...it makes me feel like she's sharing the holidays with us. Anyway....I'm sorry to ramble, but if you could please keep my mom and aunt Catherine in your prayers this holiday season as this is their first without their brother Jimmy and another one without their other brother Guy and both of their parents I would really appreciate it. Also, please keep my cousins Judith and Guy and their families in your prayers as this will be their first Christmas without their father, my uncle Jimmy. I wanted to share this poem with you all before I sign off. I read this two years ago tomorrow at Mamama's graveside service and it's as true today as it was then.
Lots of love,
Spencer

I Did Not Die (Author Unkown)

Do not stand at my grave and weep;

I am not there, I do not sleep.

I am a thousand winds that blow,

I am the diamond's glint on snow.

I am the sunlight on ripened grain,

I am the gentle autumn rain.

When you awaken in the morning's hush,

I am the swift uplifting rush

Of quiet birds in circling flight.

I am the stars that shine at night.

Do not stand at my grave and cry.

I am not there. I did not die.

Thanksgiving in Nacogdoches 2008

We went to Nacogdoches for Thanksgiving this year. We swap every year as to whether we have Thanksgiving with my side of the family or Davin's and this year it was my side's turn. We went to my Aunt Catherine's for Thanksgiving dinner and got to see my cousin Rachael and Aaron's new baby boy Sumner (he looks JUST like a Cabbage Patch doll!), and we got to see Michael and Jennifer and their two beautiful girls: Cate and Grace. Davin took all the pics at Catherine's withour other camera so I will have to download those later. The kids all had a great time and the food was fabulous! Friday morning Davin, Haydenand I all went to Timpson to go see my surrogate sister, Denisha and her family. Our boys had lots of fun playing together and making a big mess! I can't believe it's already December and I have NOTHING to show for it! No Christmas presents at all except for all the kiddos (all the cousins on both sides of the fam)! We haven't bought the first thing for Hayden yet! We need to get on that and this year Santa is DEFINITELY going to have to help me get it all together! Davin also painted the baby's room and put together all her furniture when we got back to San Antonio and it looks GREAT! I can't wait to see the finished product, but so far so good! I'll take pics of that too and post them sometime this week!
I hope you all had a wonderful holiday weekend!
Love,
Spencer

Hayden with his Honey and Poppy


Hayden and Cousin Cate-Cate!

Connor and Hayden destroyed Connor's room in about 2 minutes!


Hayden with his new Elmo See n' Say from Aunt Nisha, Uncle Josh, and Connor



My sister Densisha and Me!


Cox fam having farewell pancakes at IHOP before heading back to San Antonio

Papaw's Last Football Game!

Saturday November 22, 2008 marked the last football game for Papaw. He has been a defensive coordinator for college football for almost 40 years. Some of the colleges he has coached at include Nichols State, McNeese State, Stephen F. Austin State University and for the last eight seasons he has coached at the University of Central Arkansas. After a long and very successful career her certainly deserves to enjoy a quiet retirement with Mimi, his grand-babies, and of course, duck hunting! Ha! We love you Papaw and football season just won't ever be the same again without us going to cheer you on!
Love,
Spencer
Mimi with both of her grand-babies!


Mimi and Papaw with their grand-babies before the game!

Happy Birthday Uncle Pat!

Hahahaha! Pat ALWAYS steals every one's camera and take 10,000 pictures of himself with it and then sneaks it back into its case, so I thought I would post one of those gems he left on our camera for his birthday! We hope you have a FABULOUS 28th....30 isn't too far away! We love you bunches!

Prayers for Honey!

Hi guys! I just wanted to drop you all a quick note to ask if you would all keep Mom (Honey to Hayden)in your prayers today as she goes to see a specialist about her Osteoporosis. I'll keep you updated!

Love,
Spencer

Some SUPER cute pictures!

I have attached some pictures from our trip to Arkansas, some pictures of the fabrics we chose for Peyton's nursery, some pictures of her furniture, and a picture of Hayden and me at his very first movie at the theater! We had a wonderful time in Arkansas and Hayden LOVED playing in his first pile of leaves!! I can only imagine how he will react to snow!

We are going to paint Peyton's room a pale yellow (all four walls) and her Daddy is going to paint white bunnies with pink tutus and ballet slippers throughout the room too! Mimi is making EVERYTHING for her room, from the bedskirt to the window treatment, to the bumbers, quilt, etc. It's going to be one of a kind and look FABULOUS!! I have a bunny my grandmother made shortly before she passed away almost two years ago before we knew whether or not Hayden would be a boy or a girl (she made a Raggedy Andy if we had a boy)so I will put that up in her room too! I have also saved my first pair of toe shoes in case I ever had a daughter so I could give her those too! They will hang in her room as well! I can't wait to see the whole room put together! She will probably grow up to be the biggest tomboy and HATE ballet, but until she's old enough to tell us that she is going to be our little ballerina princess!

Have a wonderful week!
-Spencer

Where's Hayden?


There he is!


Our BEAUTIFUL baby boy!! They just don't get any cuter than him!


Hayden with his Mimi in the leaf pile Daddy made!


Somebody help me get out of this thing!


Hehehe...I have leaves down my pants...


One, two, three....go!! Yay Mommy....AGAIN!!! Do it again!


Hayden and Mimi's big teddy bear


Papaw reading to Hayden


Singing together


Rolling the ball...this is VERY hard for him since all he ever wants to do is CHUNK it!


Hayden and Daddy with the silly hat


Hayden and Mimi before the game


Hayden and Mommy before the game...I don't think he likes the hat anymore.


Peyton's four fabrics that will make-up her nursery!


Peyton's dresser and changing table


Peyton's other dresser...what? This girl is going to have a LOT of clothes!!


Peyton's crib (it's convertible up to a full size just like Hayden's).


Hayden and Mommy at Hayden's very FIRST movie theater experience!